Dear Little Ones |
Lani Embury © October 2009 |
In Memory of Our Precious Twins 9/4/09 |
Frozen in time
You waited patiently For your turn to bloom. The days - no years - of anticipation The planning and preparation Every detail attended to. Your time had come You were brought to us “Two Excellent looking embryos”, it was said All went well – now the wait! The excitement – reserved 14 days to test - feels like 1400. Early testing faint but there Then darker and then darker still. Official Beta 216.9 – joy – but … Then the blood, the cramps Fear, uncertainty - mixed with hope 2nd Beta 3337 – renewed hope, maybe twins. More trouble, distress Questions with no answers. “Hold on Little Ones”, I pray. More blood and pain then panic. I reach out for help – I feel exposed 3rd Beta 15,533 - that’s great – maybe. But then - excruciating pain Drenched and overcome with fear You are leaving us – why? “Please stay”, I pray – I beg We love you and want you to live This is your time to shine. You grew so well I saw you strong and healthy. I knew you Your hearts beating with mine. Wrong place – but why? You had the perfect womb Then you moved – not one but both of you! You could not live there any longer Your departure was traumatic I almost went with you. You didn’t let me go You knew - Your sister and father “still need me”, So together you left – you’re not alone. Grief consumes – the loss so deep You touched life so briefly And now, Little Ones, you are no more. Lay you to rest – we must You will be missed – your memory cherished For you are our “Angel - Little Ones” now – for ever. Good bye our beloved – we love you! Mommy and Daddy |