|Joshua Patrick Runyon|
|by Stephanie Runyon|
| As I wake each day, I often wonder why our precious angel was taken from us so soon. After all, he was planned for nine months and then some. It all seemed so simple to deliver a beautiful little boy and bring him home to a loving stable family. Despite all our efforts, nothing happened the way we had once planned.
While I struggle to believe that Joshua’s death was “for a reason”, I am left with an empty feeling that will always ache for my first born son. Maybe what I am feeling has made me a better person in the long run, but oh how I wish I could have learned more about my faith in a less painful, or at least, less permanent way.
I still wonder what my little guy might be doing if he were here today. Maybe he would be trying to walk or learning to say, “Da Da.” Even though we are expecting our second child in April, we will always love and remember our firstborn son, Joshua.
|Joshua is the son of Stephanie and Craig Runyon. He was born January 27, 1996 and was 7 pounds and 15 ounces. He lived for ten and one-half hours and died January 27 due to severe anemia from Rh disease.